Friday, December 31, 2010

Thank You So Much!

Thank You; Kadrin Che La! Source: Google Images


Okay, we are finally down to the near end of the year 2010. Everybody seems excited waiting for the ‘count down’. Within matter of minutes, and seconds, the New Year 2011 will unfurl right in front of our eyes. It is kind of weird to see other part (other half?) of the World already in 201l while rest half still in 2010, and eagerly waiting for 2011 to officially set its foot.

Traditionally, people make various resolutions for the year; which they would strive to fulfill in the year before they either end up disappointing themselves for failing to live up and yet make another resolutions for the following year. Wishing for good health, to receiving a promotion or raise, to promising to quit smoking, to finding a lasting relationship, to cutting down the weight, so and so forth, the resolutions are varied. Some truly work for it, and live up to their promises. But mostly, they are forgotten midway through the year. It shouldn’t come as surprise to anyone, though. It is a human tendency! You agreed? Say yes.

So today afternoon, I was voice chatting in the Skype with a friend of mine who studies in St. Francis Xavier University, Canada. We are in the same batch, graduated high school from the same school, and now headed for the same profession-teaching. Like I did to many other friends, I wished him a happy New Year before I threw an anticipated question: “What’s your new year resolution?” “My resolution is to have no resolutions,” he replies as a matter of factly. I wasn’t surprised, because I myself feel the same regarding the resolution. I know I may not be able to live up it. So I don’t make any.

For now, I am just waiting for the clock to tick 12:00 AM! That is the moment, which everybody is waiting for, and the moment that marks the beginning of 2011. Sadly, though, I won’t be able to make a toast and shake first handshakes (or hugs) of 2011. Because, I am the only residue at home, and although I have few drinks in the fridge, I am not going to drink like I regrettably drank the last New Year. I don’t want to start my first day of the year sleeping whole day like I did then.

As whatever I do/did finally become “the last thing that I did in 2010”, this article marks the last article of the year. I have ventured into blogging some 9 months or so ago, and written 40 articles on various topics, both good and bad. Hope year 2011 will give me even more reasons to write more, and break this years record! I thank each and everyone who has “followed” me, read my articles, commented on it, and encouraged me to "keep on writing". Without all these, I wouldn’t have found good enough reasons to continue writing. Hoping for the same support, and encouragement in future as well!

Once again, my heartfelt thanks to each and everyone who paid visit to my blog, and made effort to comment. Please don't stop coming.
Tashi Delek!

Happy New Year 2011


Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011! Photo Courtesy: Google Images


Greetings to all my dear friends!

By this time, I am pretty sure, everybody has something to thank for. It is very obvious not everybody might have had a good year; some might have lost the loved ones, while some might have failed to make a good living. But no matter how rough or bad the Year 2010 might have been, we know nothing remains for eternity, even the Year 2010 is on the verge of leaving us soon. For ones who had terrific year, you may feel emotional seeing years coming to an end. Its okay, that’s the part of life. But for some who might have had a tough year, it is only understandable that you would be waiting to get it over, and look forward to the New Year. 

Anyway, lets look back to the bygone days, weeks, and months and feel proud that we have been able to survive the year 2010. That in itself lies a purpose for us to be thankful for. However, we are not to dwell with the past; marveling the goods or lamenting for the bad. In fact we are to focus more on the coming future. Putting it in the words of His Majesty the King, when we talk about future, it is nothing that we are unaware of. Today what we struggle with our two hands is the nature of tomorrow's future. Future comes with new opportunities, new challenges, new environment, so and so forth. We should be longingly mindful of the future, and accordingly be ready to live up to its level. Life is a journey; don't just focus on the single point. Learn from the past mistakes, work towards correcting it, and move on. If the need be, don't be afraid to make compromises. Life is full of compromises, so we should learn to live by it. Hope everybody will do what it takes to make one's life meaningful to live. Lets welcome the New Year 2011 with full heart. For many of us, it will be a new beginning with fresh resolutions, while for some it will be simply a continuation of the past. In whichever side of the fence you may fall, make the best of it so that by this time next year, we will be able to look back with great pride and joy.

I wish each and every one of you a very happy New Year 2011. Wishing successful, and wonderful years ahead!! 
Cheers!!

Tashi Delek 

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Non-duality: Being Negative, and Trying to be Happy.


Silver lining in the darkest clouds! Source: Google Images
I woke up late today- at 11: 30 AM. I was okay, then. A few hours later, though, I began to feel something strange. I was feeling anxious, restless, dull, and many more. I just hate these creepy feelings! My heartbeat seemed to race abnormally high that left me in a complete scare. I didn’t know what was wrong with me, but I was very certain I was still breathing-alive. So I recomposed myself, monitored my breath, and lay back -hoping to calm myself. Just on time, quite coincidentally, I remember what I read in Mingyur Rinpoche’s book of “Joyful Wisdom” about tackling the stress, and the so called abnormal feelings. His Eminence provides the ways and methods to approach the stress, and help tackle it. Loosely paraphrasing, he advises to confront the stress directly rather than shying away and avoiding it for it will become worse. Digging deeper, and figuring out the source(s) of stress is what one of the authors of New York Times Bestseller the “Joy Of Living” is talking about and meaning when he said to “confront it”.

Thanks your Holiness for your, indeed, “Joyful Wisdom(s)”. Although I may not have nailed all that Holiness has mentioned about tackling the stress, I tried my best, and it seems to be working. Deep down in my mind I knew I didn’t have any valid reasons to be feeling the way it did, so I traced it back to their root causes. Eventually, I came to know that I was being too negatively judgmental about myself. That seemed to have resulted in such feelings, a creepy one.

Negative feelings don’t need to necessarily arise from negative sources. Sometimes they don’t even need any external sources. Our mind makes everything up, and the body bears the brunt of it. Today I am alone at home. My roommates just left for a weeklong trip to NYC earlier today. The house looks abandoned and quiet. I feel lonely, and sad. When everybody seems to make great time out of the vacation, and specifically coming of the New Year, I am a guy confined in this house without any plans. It makes me sad having to stay at home and nothing productive to do. I am not privileged of such enjoyments and merrymaking. I watch guitar-lesson tutorials, get crazed about it, I try playing, I fail and then I become upset. I chat with friends, they seem joyful, and I feel sorry about myself. So and so forth contributes to unease feelings, restlessness, and low self-esteem.

But in considering all those mentioned afore, what I haven’t noticed or failed altogether is to look at the positive part of my life. Yes, I’ve truly failed. If I put his Holiness’s approach into practice, I find so many things in me to feel happy about. There was absolutely no point to feel the way I began to feel. It was because of my truer perspective gotten clouded by negative aspects of mine. It does no good, but results in low self-esteem. I have felt carried away by someone else’s good things that I completely failed to acknowledge some goodness that resides in me all the time. I am battling with spotting a silver lining in the darkest clouds. It isn’t easy, but certainly not impossible. If one is very true to oneself, and acknowledges the goodness in you, there is no reason to feel dejected about anything. Good and bad are not absolute entities; they depend heavily on one’s reference point. So what I learnt today in quest of tackling my stress is that we always have to try to look at the brighter and positive side, than worrying about the negative sides. We have everything that takes to make oneself capable of being a good human being, but what we lack is our truer sense of looking at us. So assessing oneself, being contented, and remedying the stress is very tantamount in making a happy living.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas!


Beautiful Christmas tree. Source: Google Images


Today is Saturday, the 25 th of December. Which means, of course, the Christmas Day. It is “considered” as the birthday of Jesus Christ. I say “considered” because according to “The History of Christmas”, an online organizational source, the actual date was never known! It was in 4th century that “the early Church Fathers in the 4th century fixed the day around the old Roman Saturnalia festival (17 - 21 December), a traditional pagan festivity”. But it was at the later period decided December 25th as the official day.

On this festive day, everybody looks forward to varied surprising presents supposedly “shopped and hidden” for them by Santa Claus. I can totally see what the day means to American people around here. I personally have come to know about this widely celebrated Day not very long ago. It was in 2007, as I came to the US, and got to celebrate the first ever Christmas Day with my ex-host family Kathleen Smith, and Jeff. The colorful lights hung all over the houses, and beautiful Christmas trees (either fake or real) are the most notable scenes during this period of time. While most well-to-do parents don’t have problems surprising their children with surprising presents on the day, it is very obvious the less fortunate parents struggle to live up to the tradition of gifting their children when daily sustenance is their primary concern. But one thing I like very much about here is- more fortunate people buy gifts and donate to the organization to be given to the less fortunate kids. Like, the NBA Basketball superstars and stars hold a shopping camp whereby children from poor family background get to shop of their wish, and enjoy the feel of Christmas.

Being from a culturally different country, whenever I write, I tend to compare or contrast with my country and the country that I am currently in. Bhutan doesn’t celebrate Christmas like the western countries, and closest of the sort which I can think of are annual festivals which are held every nook and corner of the country. So the Christmas day doesn’t mean much to me personally. I don’t spend money for buying gift, nor do I get one from any. My other international friends seem to do the same. However, just to mark the day, we usually hang out, travel around, and go to a party. This year, too, we went to the city of Miami, a roughly over 3 hours drive from the Melbourne City. We spent a night over there, and surely we had a blast. We walked along the south beach, known for its popularity as a hot tourist destination, hit some bars, and certainly got a feel of Christmas atmosphere of the city of Miami, the biggest city in Florida.

With this, I am now four Christmas old. In five months, I will be heading back to my country, and I won’t celebrate Christmas anymore there, so this clearly marks the last and final Christmas for me!

Till then, Merry Christmas to you all!!!!


Source: http://www.ridgenet.org/Szaflik/history.htm

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Is YEAR 2012 becoming a reality in Bhutan?


2012 Mystery. Source: Google Images.
I don’t know if the media coverage has improved over the years in Bhutan, or cases of accidents have actually risen, but one thing is very clear-the case of accidents are reported almost everyday. This is very panicking and nerve racking! All of a sudden, Bhutan has become a sorrowful nation. As a kid, I remember hearing the news of accidents of such magnitude through radio only once in a while. Of course, most might have gone unreported, no doubt, but I wonder if nation has suffered such a loss then.

The devastating fire accident that gutted down the entire Chamkhar town, several road accidents, the recent tragic flight accident that killed 18 Bhutanese people in Nepal, and yet the very recent bus accident below Dochula have added wounds to the already panicked nation.

While the flight accidents are the case of rarity, what concern me most are the road accidents, which have seriously become the issue in Bhutan. I don’t know if we should blame the geographic unfriendliness (being a Himalayan nation) as the main cause of accidents, or agree with the stereotype of Americans: “Asians are bad drivers!” Or is RSTA doing an enough job to ensure the safety of those on roads? Is police patrol doing enough to make drivers comply with the traffic rules? Or even worse, IS 2012 BECOMING A REALITY in Bhutan?!

Yes, I understand neither RSTA nor Police alone can ensure that each and every one on road is safe. It is the people who should be mindful, and compliant with the traffic rules. But again, we people although superior than animal, need some sort of a forceful reminder every now and then just to do things right. That’s where RSTA and Police come into play to remind them about the safety measures even if it means by slapping them fines for non-compliance of rules, and instilling in them the sense of safe driving. Eventually they will learn the lesson, and be more alert while driving.

I only wish if everybody on road could be more careful, and follow the rules. Its true RSTA and police can do very little, if people are not being compliant and cooperative with them. After all, I have learnt very recently that both RSTA and Police are shorthanded, and lack man power to put those measures into practical use. For instance, I read in one of the newspapers that there are only few speed guns for police to monitor the speed limit. This needs to be addressed, because driving over the limit is often reported to be the main cause of such accidents. So unless people learn to respect the signboards bearing the speed limit along the road, and police are provided with adequate equipments, the problem will remain as it is of now.

But it is no time to play a blame game, and point fingers at each other. It is rather high time all stakeholders come together, and find means to minimize such dreadful accidents. Together lets get out of this cursed-year 2010!!!!

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Dinner with Linda Mom.

With the Semester now over, the chilly winter campus of FIT (Florida Institute of Technology) wears a deserted look; with a fewer number of cars scattered over the parking lots, and fewer number of people hitting the gym. It is no surprise as everybody goes home to spend the Christmas with their family members. Only those who are far away from home, obviously those international students, are the ones who remain in the city of Melbourne. I am one of them.

As the semester gears to an end, the most typical talk around would be about plans for the break. It is not a surprising thing to bump into someone asking you "So, whats your plan for the christmas?", on a day to day basis. Of course, my answer is always "Nothing really. I will be around here". This year's Christmas isn't any different, either. I am here, and will be here. No matter how bored you get, and lonely you feel, you are left with no option. I certainly feel sad having to spend whole winter vacation either sleeping or browsing internet.

But there are equally unfortunate people like me putting a boring life. So it makes sense to get together, and enjoy our own share of time. A friend of mine from India happens to be the one who noticed my presence here. She asked me a couple of weeks ago "If I want to join them for camping at Tampa, Florida." I felt overjoyed and promptly replied in affirmation. Since then, I had a better answer to those inquiries from curious buddies. "Yes, I am going for camping!" I would say then.

However, the weather played its own role putting our only plan to a complete halt! Here I quote what my friend texted me the day before yesterday "...Linda Mom says according to forecast there are 40% shower, so there is no point in going to camping...what do you think?" I was like no way! But yeah, it doesn't make sense to go for camping in extreme weather condition. So I made my decision, and we called off our plan.

Just a few hours after we made our decision, though, I received yet another text message from her. Shweta and our host Ms. Linda have figured out things to do, making it up for our failed plan. Mom had invited us to join her for a dinner, with a provision of playing some games. I agreed to join them, and tonight they picked me up at my apartment, and off we went to mom's house, 15 minutes drive to the downtown.

Shortly after we reached there, we were asked to help ourselves of very delicious food, and drinks. Eating the food with mom, and friends on the dinning table inside the room fully decorated with Christmas tree, twinkling lights, and background soft christmas song made me feel so homely. Although we don't celebrate Christmas in Bhutan, or particularly in my house, I felt strangely happy. After a plateful of deserts comprising cheese cake, chocolate flavored cake, and varieties of cookies, we played games called "Onu" and "Yahtzee". We played nearly three hours, and we called for the day.

Now I feel kind of happy that at least I did something for Christmas, in fact the nice moment. I thank you so much mom, and my friends Shweta, Namrata, and Hyo for inviting me, and giving me a good company. I will cherish it forever.

Merry Christmas to you all!

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Strangers Become my Saviors!

Sometimes, I tend to be very childish-a simple nice thing can make me so happy, and again a very silly bad thing can make be down! I won't say I live without a long term 'big' plan for my life, but I usually settle for a simpler plan. I strive for the best, try my heart out, but I certainly know how to accept the failure, no matter how unpleasant it is.
University life isn't the bed of roses, and it comes with full of choices-either to make it work out good for you, or opt for something which may not be always good for you. You learn to take decisions of your own, and stand on your own feet. "University life is the most crucial part and the fastest learning period in your life..." says a professor of Mathematics, Dr. Tenali, answering to students' enquiries of life being so stressful. You grow both physically, and intellectually within four years. You come in as someone, and go away with entirely different person, an officially professional.
Peer pressures, academic requirements, professors' expectations of you as an "over-achiever" et al makes the life extremely challenging, to say the least. It is nearly impossible to grapple all those challenges simply by living in your cocoon-the comfort zone! You got to go an extra miles, and keep nothing as granted. I am a very shy person, and probably the quietest student in every class. I feel shy to approach someone, and ask for the help. I do really have to overcome my fear and be more open. "In the US, nobody will approach you and render helping hands, if you don't speak up and approach them first..." are the words of a director whom I happened to meet during the Fulbright Official Dinner at Druk Hotel in Thimphu. After having gotten selected for the scholarship following the declaration of BHSEC (class 12), in 2007, I got invited to the Official Dinner hosted by U.S Embassy officials who happened to be the Hamphrey Scholarship interviewers, and Fulbright representatives, then. I felt very honored!
Those words really struck me as I came here and deal with the ground realities. Somehow now, I have developed some courage, and appreciated his words. On the scale of 1 to 10, I would, however, rate just 6. I still need to conquer my fear, and shy. They contribute more and more to the stress-level. Working in a team, or group creates synergy, thus yielding higher quality of work. I knew that fact, but always face difficult being in a group, specially when people around me are complete strangers.
But this semester being my second last one, I tried my best to conquer my fear and able to approach people. In fact, I am happy that I have been able to make more friends this semester, and now I feel more confident to make my last semester even more significant. I have a few people deserving of a mention, and whom I owe a heartfelt thank. As I said earlier, I am a quiet guy in the class, and even worse, I become extremely quiet in the classes other than my major. Philosophy of Science course, tortured me enough. The fact that I was the only international student in that class, made even worse. I somehow manage to pass the midterms and assignments, but my biggest fear was the final exam.
Just a couple of hours ahead of the exam, I was having the lunch of Pasta in the cafe with two friends of mine. A girl (whom I later recognized as a girl in the philosophy class) walks up to me, and says "We are having a review session for the exam. Do you wanna join?" Delighted, I promptly replied "Wow awesome. Where is it gonna be?" She said that it was gonna be in the first floor of the library, and left to grab her lunch. I met her in the library, and she went over almost everything that she thought would be in the exams with me. I felt short of words to thank her. In a similar incident, but this time me approaching a girl in my Biomath class. I hesitantly asked her "if we could work together for the finals", to which she responded in affirmation. We exchanged our cell phone numbers. The next day, I was to meet her in the library. I went there, and once again felt short to thank her for her generous help. She had literally done 90% percent of the problems, photo-copied and kept readied to hand over to me. What can I say, I am truly truly thankful to them.

They are my saviors!!!

And Thus, Semester Comes to an End!

This Fall semester has been very crucial one, not that others were not, and of course crucial-ness implies a greater challenge. This was the first semester of my senior year, and the courses were just as demanding. All six courses (three Maths, one Humanities, one Management, and one Environment) were very challenging, but I can't deny that they were all intectually stimulating. I had a very slow start, which I soon regreted for I struggled to catch up with the progress at the end. Somehow, though, I could manage to pull on track before it was too late, except the Numerical Analysis course, which I blew off completely! Not that I didn't try, but it just didn't work the way I initially thought. Normally, I consider first mid-term exams (yeah it sounds weird, but here they have a system whereby several 'mid-terms' are conducted before the final exams) as a kind of test drive as to see how professors assess our understanding on the material covered in the class. So that I would be better prepared in remaining midterms, and hopefully do it better. That was exactly what I did, and although I screwed up, I didn't worry much as I was quite confident enough that I could make up the next time.

However, it didn't work as I planned. I did really bad midterms after midterms, and couldn't do much to revive my dropping grades. I became more stressed out, and overwhelmed by the work load. At times, I found myself getting off to bed around 2 am, and waking up at 8 am. The situation just got worse and worse as the semester progressed. No matter how bad you do, time doesn't feel mercy on you. It just flies away without any delay. Just like that, it was already the final week of the semester; on the self study week for finals. "I can really demonstrate in final that I had learnt the materials taught in class, or screw alltogether!" I realized as I dedicatedly reviewed for the finals. Interestingly, the ones which didn't make sense earlier made more sense, and questions which I blew it off in midterms turned out very trivial. In short, I just realized that I learnt more in the final week than I did over the entire semester!
But a week was just not enough a time to cover all six courses. It was already the exam time, and within a week, I am done with the semester! I can't believe that I am now down to one semester, the final one!

Indeed, I've come a long way.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

How Many Planets are there in the Solar System?

Planets on their orbits. Source: Google
Its really disturbing how I can become so outdated in this so called twenty-first century world when technology plays major role in each and every part of our life. Despite all the resources present right in my proximity, I still continue to remain outdated, which is evident as I keep hearing and coming across something new almost everyday. I mean 'new' or rather news to me, but not to others. But I think I can forgive myself for not knowing the silly stuffs, and of course not everybody can know and keep updated with everything. 
I can't however forgive me for failing to know the number of planets in our Solar System. Till couple of weeks ago, I was so confident enough of my ideas on solar systems (at least pertaining to the number of planets, and their names). As a matter of fact, I have been fondly known to my friends as a 'very updated' person because I spend fair amount of time reading news papers, watching news and discovery channels, etc. Now I feel shy even to think of that. If it wasn't for the Philosophy of Science which I am currently taking and struggling to understand, humiliating enough, I wouldn't have known that answer; the answer which even the elementary students might have right on their lips. 
I am not a fan of Philosophy nor very enthusiastic about the subject, but when I am left with no other options than to take it, all I have to do is to go the class, be on the very back seat, and daydream for hour and fifteen minutes. But now I can't help thanking this course for updating me with the basic general knowledge! I have often boasted of my excellent performance in high school Geography, and Physics subjects. So I had no doubt that there are a total of nine (9) planets in the Solar System. I recited the their names: "Mercury, Venus, Earth, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto" which came out exactly nine.  But it wasn't until last week that I learn that there are only eight planets orbiting around the Sun! How come? This is because Pluto has been downgraded to a mere Dwarf planet. 
Pluto, a Dwarf Planet. Source: Google
You might be wondering why did I come across such thing in the philosophy class, which I intend to address in a few paragraphs that follow. The very decision of downgrading Pluto to Dwarf planet has sparked off so many philosophical questions, and in fact it has become a very controversial issue among the scientists and philosophers. The problems lie on the complexity of the very definition of Planet, method employed for making decisions (which are based on majority voting), interpretation issues, so and so forth. While some scientists opposed the decision to deprive Pluto the Planet-hood, majority of scientists who were present at annual IAU (International Astronomical Union) conducted in Czech Republic on 24th August, 2006, voted in favor of it, subsequently which Pluto was officially taken out of the solar system. 
How and why was Pluto deprived of the Planet-hood? The issue popped up short after a major discovery by an astronomer named Mike Brown of California Tech, who discovered an Object slightly bigger than Pluto. He claimed it to be the tenth planet, and quite naturally everybody were excited that our solar system is indeed going to get the new planet. However, the very discovery questioned the status of the planets, and finally the IAU had to redefine what Planet is. Turns out, the new definition saw more stringent criteria than earlier definition. Out of three main criteria set out by the IAU committee, Pluto passed the two which I am not interested to discuss here. The third criterion which requires a planet "to have “cleared the neighborhood” of its orbit" (Universe Today) is the one which Pluto doesn't fulfill, thus depriving it the Planet-hood. 
It is being argued that since Pluto is not "massive" enough, it can't create its own gravity, which in turn can't clear its neighborhood. Now not only did Mike Brown's Planet X failed to gain the Planet-hood, but in due course of time it brought down Pluto to a mere Dwarf planet. 

Whether one support it or not, the decision has been made, and plate-form has been set for philosophers and scientists to debate on. 

Note: Its not proof-read, so bear with the grammatical errors. 

Reference: 
http://www.universetoday.com/13573/why-pluto-is-no-longer-a-planet/

Friday, November 12, 2010

An Unanswered Question of Love!

Thus came an emotion of red-heart blinking on the chat window. "Are we doing the right thing?!" Rigdhen expresses his apprehension about the latest development as he reciprocates with an exact same emotion.
"Hehe, I don't know, may be..." comes the reply from the other end. It is so miracle how such emotion could mean so much that a new beginning just got on to the verge of germination. Everywhere the air was filled with mysterious LOVE, and all he could imagine at that moment was her-his new-found.
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"I feel very insecure of you. I fear that you might leave me alone, and go. Dear! Promise me, you will never leave me..." Thus he reveals his fears of losing his soul-mate every time he calls and chats with her. "Why do you always stay with that fear? Don't even worry about that, darling" forth comes the answer to his great relief.
The more they spend time together, the more attached they become, and ultimately agrees to spend the rest of the life united;
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"I have never even dreamt in my wildest dream that a girl of your caliber could do such to me. Please, just give me a reason why you did that to me," are his final words and the question which remained unanswered as their year old relationship helplessly came to a crushing decay.

Note: To be filled in the blanks as and when time permits!

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Homecoming Parade 2010

The homecoming event officially started since the 3rd of November, and today was the main event with a parade through the streets on the campus area. Homecoming is a tradition widely practiced in north American universities, colleges, and high schools to welcome the alumni and 'former residents'. (wikipedia)
Bhutan joining rest of the countries.

The today's parade included an ROTC troop, a merchant band, our university cheerleaders, and high school cheerleaders, a group of students representing the International Student and Scholar's Organization (ISSO), and several vehicles and people representing their sororities and fraternities.

I was one of the students as a member of the ISSO representing Bhutan. Just day before yesterday, the student President of ISSO who happens to be my friend's girlfriend had emailed me asking if I could bear the Bhutan Flag and join the parade. I instantly felt excited about the idea, and promptly responded in affirmation. After all, this is my second last semester here, and this will be the last chance! For the last few years of my stay here, I was just a dummy spectator as I was fairly unknown to most of them. So this time I grabbed the opportunity, and I represented the Kingdom of Bhutan probably for the first time in the history of Florida Institute of Technology, if the only person who graduated from Florida Institute of Technology in 1991 had not done so! As per the record provided to me by an official from Royal Civil Service Commission, I am the second person to none to study in this university after Mr. Ganga Ram Sharma, who as per the record is an Engineer in the Ministry of Information and Communications now.

While Bhutan seems to be fairly new to most of the people I encountered here, at least I feel, today I held and raised the Flag as high as any other countries' flags. At several locations, I heard those people standing by witnessing the parade murmuring something like ''...Oh that one has a Dragon on it, which country is it?" Only if I could break the line, I would have told them about the great country which that flag represents.
Lone Bhutanese joins the homecoming parade 2010

The parade made a complete round on the campus roads, and finally wrapped up at the college parking lot. The news about the Barbecue luncheon from my friend just came as a great relief to me as I was quite starving then, so we proceeded to the 'pantherium', and helped ourselves. That was a day!

Happy Homecoming 2010.

Go Florida Institute of Technology!!!

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Its Halloween!

Pumpkin curving; Source-Google images


The last three months of the year are highly looked forward to, and largely anticipated by many sections of people in the world. It could be attributed to having several holidays, festivals, (exams may be?) and above all the coming of the end of the year, or rather coming of the new year?!


Yesterday was the eve of Halloween, "an annual holiday observed on October 31, primarily in Canada, Ireland, the United States and the United Kingdom. It has roots in the Celtic festival of Samhain and the Christian holiday All Saints' Day, but is today largely a secular celebration" (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Halloween)

This is my fourth time observing this annual event. So yesterday too like last year, I with my two roommates went to Melbourne downtown to join the thousands of people in their best choice of costumes to mark the event. The roads leading to the downtown as normal were closed for traffic, and they were fenced from every entry point, so that people have to pay to get admittance. But problem is, even if you are willing to pay $10, the queue was just so long which didn't seem to be moving at all, which I later learnt that the space was very full and gate keepers are denying of entry until 12:00 am. We checked each and every entry point in a hope of finding the shorter queue, but in vain. Eventually though, around 12:15 am, we were allowed to actually enter for 'free'. We got in and met several friends out there. Some of them were in costumes imitating Lady Gaga, Doctors, Presidents, so on and on. At times, I laughed at very funny costumes, and sometimes got scared by the haunting masks. But my best was the imitation of Osama Bin Laden. I laughed a lot when I first spotted that, and felt little terrified too recollecting all those he had done to this world!

Above all, people were looking so excited about the event as they flock in groups at night clubs and parties. One significant thing that I noticed about this event was the pumpkin curving. Everybody buys pumpkin of various sizes for curving, and decorate their houses. Immediately, the thought came into mind that those farmers who grow pumpkins are doing good business, and making decent money here. In our country, we don't have any festivals like here which requires pumpkin in such quantity. In fact, people usually 'waste' pumpkin, and feed animals. I think if our government could collaborate and export pumpkins to America or nations observing such events, it would help bring our local economy up, and directly help lift the livelihood of our farmers. Lol, sounds cheesy, but its doable, i think.

Happy Halloween and a nice Holiday!!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

"Khegpa" The Head Hunter (Edited Version-repost)


Ever since my friend Mr. Yeshi Dorji, a final year B Ed. (teacher trainee) at Samtse College of Education, under Royal University of Bhutan offered me to publish this story in his upcoming Book (seen at the right), I guess it has undergone a few times of editorial touches. So firstly I want to thank Mr. Yeshi for being kind enough in offering me a space in his book. Secondly, I would like to thank all reviewers for sparing their precious time and making my article readable and especially to the chief editor Mr. K. C. Jose, a lecturer of Samtse College for his valuable feedbacks and necessary changes.**
Bhutanese Traditional Kitchen: 'Arsang'- the pot for
making Ara resembles the one at the left.
Photo credit: The Bhutan Travel Guide

Bhutan has come a long way in terms of infrastructural development, and it has seen the state-of-the-art buildings mushrooming for the last few decades. It has, with no doubt, raised the living standard of the generally primitive people of the nation long been isolated high up in the Himalayas. Flipping through the pages of Bhutanese history, one will come to realize that Bhutan has indeed seen the institution of decentralized government, introduction of modern education, and linking with the outside world with the first ever motorable road built from border town of Phuntsholing to the capital city Thimphu. Accordingly, the ancient fortresses or dzongs were renovated and some newly built to the state-of-the-art buildings at the various strategic locations, and the modern high-tech bridges-the lifeline of the citizens living in the scattered villages were beneficially constructed much to their relief; thereby not requiring them to cross the deep gorges and rivers which were commuted with the help of ropes risking their lives for ages.

However, its citizens were highly apprehensive of the development activities taking place in the nation, despite knowing the great benefit it would bring in the long run to the nation as well as to their livelihoods. Not that they wanted to live in that poor condition for ever, nor for their love to remain as the human museum for the outside fast-developing world either. But they were actually heavily tormented by the fear of losing their heads to the mysterious head hunter called ‘Khegpa’. While the leaders of the family had to leave in order to execute of those development process elsewhere based on government directives, leaving behind their family members at home, sometimes under the care of their immediate neighbors. Those family members at home remained under constant threat of encountering that mysterious ‘khegpa’ at any time.

According to some die-hard believers of that mysterious ‘khegpa’, the ‘khegpa’ is believed to be a designated person, adorned with a black attire, equipped with a sharp knife and leather sack to stuff in with the decapitated of the victims, and wore gum-boots with its sole resembling to that of army-shoes. The families were always at the losing end because the ‘khegpas’ were considered to be ‘Licensed’ by the government, meaning they couldn’t sue even if they ever succeed in catching some ‘stupid’ khegpas. It was popularly believed that those mysterious hunters roam around the villages, and whoever falls into their trap would be beheaded. That head would be taken to the construction sites, where it will be buried under the foundation as a gesture of pleasing those deities believed to be residing at that location; thereby promising a smooth progress without any disruptions.

It is very surprising that even to these present days, such ‘legendary terror’ are widely spread, which is worse is that it is even ‘believed’ by the so called modernized citizens of the twenty first century Bhutan. As a matter of fact, very recently it even caught the attention of the social media, and stories of various versions hit the newsstands across the nation, prompting an intervention from the concerned authority. The media which had previously popularized the story of mysterious ‘khegpa’ nationwide, again at the later dates published a rather harsh announcement from the government ‘warning’ the general public to not openly talk about ‘khegpa’ and that whoever caught talking would be hand-cuffed and put behind the bar! I would say the government intervention was timely, and necessary as people were getting overly tortured by that ‘rumors’ and the students of the far flung villages who had to travel to their schools taking hours of time were the worst hit by that mysterious force of ‘khegpa’ rumors . Moreover, the announcement made the highly tensed citizens who had been told by their ancestors about the existent of ‘khegpa’ for generations, to ‘forcefully’ accept that such ‘khegpa’ never existed in reality.

But such powerful attempt by government to ‘demystify’ the notion of ‘khegpa’ just seemed to play a role of a radio-controller trying to lower the volume, as it was still widely conversed among a wide section of people who have believed for generations and couldn’t forget the nuisance caused by ‘khegpa’. The only difference this time was that it was talked rather ‘cautiously’ and ‘silently’ fearing the repercussions from the government. Now actually to the common village folks, it was just an added worry as the policemen played yet another form of ‘khegpa’, should I say ‘formal khegpa?’ This time, they are in hunt for those who wildfires the rumors, and again this time they will not just take the ‘head’ to be buried under the foundation, but the as whole to be put behind bars!
Every time I called my parents back at home, they sounded totally terrified by the khegpa story, and would caution me ‘not to travel by myself alone.” My attempts to demystify and deny the whole concept about ‘khegpa’ would fall in to their deaf ears. Then, seeing no hope of influencing, I gave in and assured them that I was always mindful of the ‘US khegpas’ and they should not be worried about me at all.

So now due to modernization, it is only reasonable to 'wrongly' convince the believers of ‘khegpa’ that while the notion of ‘khegpa’ cannot be eradicated from their memories. It will be only for their benefit that they be mindful of the khegpa’s modus operandi which might have become so sophisticated with the invention of mobile phones, motor roads, and fastest guns. Unless someone succeeds in providing us with a convincing reason behind such rumors, we can only speculate over this mysterious issue.

Such was the scenario over some six decades or so long ago when Memey Khandu Tshewang was a jolly little boy living in a village covered by thick forest. I even doubt if the electricity was ever invented then. So people, unlike now, had to heavily depend on fire from the oven to light the rooms and cook food. While parents collected firewood from the nearby jungle, little Khandu like any other children would be taking charge of younger ones, and do some basic household chores. Since people during those times were mostly sustained through working on their farmlands which were very labor intensive job. So in order to make them forget the body and joint pains, and to get a sound sleep, they would be consuming the locally brewed alcohol-‘Ara’ in huge quantity. It was (is still in some remote villages) their routine job for older members of the family to go in group to fetch the firewood everyday leaving behind those small kids at home.

It was during such routine job that little Khandu had to take care of his ‘head’ as well as the house all alone. Once his mother had mounted the complete three-layer set of pots (a cylindrical bigger outer one, an inner most small pot for collecting condensing droplets of ‘Ara’, Another a bowl placed on top to hold water which needs to be replaced once water becomes hot to regulate the temperature and give the cooling effect to alcoholic vapor. Thus turning it to droplets of Ara!), on the oven. She instructed her som to fuel it with constant ‘flow’ of fire (heat), and replace the water on time. The process has to be repeated thrice normally, and even more depending on the taste and strength of the alcohol that one prefers. Although he needed no further instructions from his mother for he was already good at handling the art of making ‘Ara’, his mother made it sure everything went well, and off she went to the jungle with then neighbors.

He didn’t worry much about handling the assigned task, but the moment his parents left for the jungle, he was haunted by the thought of the mysterious ‘khegpa’. Thus he made every effort to seal off his house’s windows, and doors securely from inside, and stationed himself in front of the oven lit with a big flame and a well-sharpened knife dangling from his waist-ever readied to strike the ‘khegpa’ if they ever appeared. Despite the fact that he was ‘well’ equipped to confront any danger, the fear of ‘khegpa’ never disappeared from his immature mind, and as he became more reminded of the possibility of appearing ‘khegpa’ from the wide-opened ceiling, he cautiously dragged himself closer and closer to the fire-the only companion left with him at that moment!

The combined effect of the heat from the fire, and endless thoughts of ‘khegpa’ drew out streams of sweats all over his tiny body. In the midst of such tiring moments triggered by the torturous thoughts, he dozed off heavily into a deep slumber lying along the oven. For some unknown period of time, little Khandu was in a paradise of his dream, totally free of ‘khegpas’. As the troubled mind would always do, his sleep was constantly being disrupted by mysterious day dreams, yet his tired body wouldn’t be able to respond well and easily surrender to the forceful sleep. That was until he suddenly saw a huge black figure standing right in front of him. He tried to clear his blurred vision in quest of figuring who it was. To his dreadful surprise, it was that mysterious ‘khegpa’ making a quiet yet well calculated move and seemingly trying to aim the knife at his neck! A horrified Khandu then kicked him forcefully as the ‘helpless’ khegpa collapsed with a loud ‘hissing’ noise. He felt down drenched into a pool of warm blood oozed out of the dead khegpa, and noticed the fire being extinguished! The over dramatic smoke which engulfed the entire room drove away his sleep, and as he tried regaining his sense from the ‘epic’ brawl with the khegpa, he jumped up and down victoriously!

He couldn’t imagine he had ‘actually’ brought down the supposedly ‘strong and well built’ khegpas, and he felt really excited to share with his parent during the dinner time when everybody settled down for a chat over heavy dosage of ‘Ara’. The very moment he thought about the drinks, he remembered about his ‘Ara’ that he was made an in-charge of by his mother. By then, he came to see the previously systematically mounted containers of his mom scattered all over the places, the entire house powdered by the ashes, and the fire extinguished by ‘Ara’. On careful examination, he found the cylindrical ‘khegpa’ container lying in a senseless mode wearing a deformed shape!

**This story was already published in this blog last month, but after having been offered to include in Mr. Yeshi's Book, I have submitted for proofreading, and editing several times, and this is the latest and final version.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Regrets Really Have no Solution?

Lisa Marie Presley and 'King of Pop' Michael Jackson.
Photo credit: Google
Last night, despite my busy schedule, I kind of felt like watching TV, so I grabbed the remote control and turned on the TV. Subsequently, I went to the channel 11 where NBA basketball game Miami Heat vs. Atlanta Hawks was broadcasted. I watched the first half of the game, and scrolled down the channel guide. There I bumped into the Oprah Winfrey Show featuring a very attractive looking woman and Oprah.
Immediately it caught my attention, not because she is very attractive and her eyes are very sexy, should I say?, but because their conversation sounded very emotional and 'real'. Although I had no idea about who that pretty woman is then, I glued myself to the TV, and waited for her name to appear on the screen. Within a moment and to my relief, a tag bearing the words 'Lisa Marie Presley' appeared just below that pretty woman. By the way, I had the 'google' search engine page already pulled up way before, and was waiting for that moment. So I quickly typed L I S A space M A R I E space P R E S L E Y, and entered! Within a fraction of seconds, whole bunch of information about Lisa Marie Presley popped up. Just to make sure, I was looking for the right person, I clicked on the images first and yes it was a right person. Then, not very surprisingly, I clicked a wikipedia link which took me to her page. I skimmed it through her personal life section, and there I found that she was a former wife of a legendary Pop Star and an International sensation Michael Jackson (late).
Equipped with that information, I proceeded watching the show and completely forgot the NBA game. I hated the commercial breaks as I wanted to hear their talks more and more; without a break! As everybody would expect, their central talk eventually boiled down to the unexpected death of Michael Jackson whose demise on the fateful day of June 25, 2009 'shocked' the entire world. I felt the every pain she was undergoing with each word she uttered about him. "...I have never felt that high in my life....when he (Michael) was himself and let me be with him, it was just something extraordinary...I can't even describe.....so so intoxicating......he was kind a drug intoxicating me...." (I am of course paraphrasing) was Marie's confession about her relationship with Michael.
However, she sounded very regretful about her actions towards him. She had to leave him to see some positive 'changes', and that she chose to stay cut off from him. The last time they talked was in 2005 when Michael asked if she was willing to reunite. To which she said '..its over"
The final episode of the late night talk show was yet the most emotionally challenging episode. She was talking about her regrets for having stayed out of Michael's life. "...Still I feel like I could have helped him had I kept constant touch with him, and at least say hi....he was under great depression...and he needed so much care....but i just stayed out of contact with him........ thats my greatest regret!.."
It was too late as by the time she realized she was not going to leave him alone, it was a conversation with the coffin in the funeral home!

Friday, October 22, 2010

A Phone got 'lost'?

After I have confirmed that I wouldn't be able to retrieve the phone, I declared it 'lost' and published a status on my Facebook page requesting friends to 'drop me your numbers in my inbox', but kept the story to myself. Heres how I 'lost' my phone three days ago.
It was a dinner time, and having gotten home quite exhausted from the school, I headed in laze to the kitchen, downstairs, to help myself. I stuffed in all the leftovers to a plate, almost built a mountain out of it, and put into the microwave and let it heated for about two minutes. Then, I gobbled them up in few minutes. Got the dishes done, wiped the oven, and responded to the natures call. I was in the restroom (toilet) and relieving quite naturally until I heard a splashing sound beneath me. When I looked down in a rather terrified mode in a quest to find what that splashing sound was, I saw my three year old Motorola phone drowned into the ocean of water and pee and seemingly very suffocated. I was as helpless as my phone!
My thought process was that I would retrieve it after I have flashed the toilet and after my pee gets flashed off. I didn't want to stick my hands into the toilet and fish it out from that highly urine-concentrated 'ocean'. Before I could process and gather all my limited tactics, my left hand had already gotten down and flashed the toilet-a decision I soon regretted, because my phone was nowhere to be found; it was gone! I remained there in the restroom quite defeated and helpless for a while. I didn't really have means to figure that out, but I was seriously worried that it might clog (or block) the toilet. All I could do at that point was to write a note: 'Don't flash, cell phone got stuck inside!" and stick onto it. And I equally cautioned my roommates to their hysterical laughs. I felt so embarrassed, to say the least.
The next day en-route to my college, I stopped by the residence office to let them know about the situation and to 'get it fixed'. But I was greeted with a note 'We will be back in 15 minutes' hung on the window. I couldn't wait for I had a class in 10 minutes. So I continued my journey. It was 4:15 pm when I got out of my last class, and immediately I hurried to the office again. I grabbed a 'complain form' and wrote all my 'complains' (lol) and waited until the blond lady behind the desk gestured to hand in my complain paper. Probably my handwriting was too good for her to read (lol) or she didn't want to address that issue with me, because she handed over to the guy named EZ ( the service guy) after skimming through a bit. EZ skimmed through it, and as expected, he began to laugh at me. I joined him, and we laughed for a while. He assured me that he would come the next day, and try his best to which I thanked him and left the office.
The next day when I came back from the school, I was again greeted with a yellow paper note: 'I tried to pump the water out from the toilet, but phone was not there. It is gone. But its not clogging the toilet, you can use the flash" left on the dinning table.
Oh thats good, I thought myself. Good? Yes, I wasn't worried about my lost cell phone; I was just worried that it might clog the toilet and flood all over the room and would stink. But that didn't happen, so thats what I meant by good. Actually I think the God might have realized that if he didn't intervene in between and somehow take away my old phone, I won't buy a new phone any time soon. But after having serviced me for that long, letting it die such a disgraceful death was very disturbing to me (lol). Again, I am not at all concerned about the phone, but what concerns me the most is my shear stupidity!

Monday, October 11, 2010

My Email Finds a place in the Fulbright Newsletter

One day when I was doing my Intensive English Course (rather called as English as a Second Language (ESL)) at an ELS center based in our university, I received an email asking me to submit a kind of report on how I was doing, and what my feelings about the Fulbright grant were. Having been only couple of months then, I felt so burdened and short of ideas to write. However, since I was mandated, I wrote a few paragraphs in a form of email, and sent it to them. Then it was forgotten completely until I received an email correspondence of the Fulbright Foreign Student Newsletter, Issue 10, published on July 2008. I scrolled down to check if there was any pictures, but I was surprised to find my article. Although, my article didn't address any issues or bear any professionalism, I thought it was cool. So I am reproducing it below:

EXPERIENCING A WHOLE NEW FULBRIGHT WORLD

by Pema Wangdi, 2007-2008, Bhutan

I am Pema Wangdi, a 2007-8 Fulbright grantee from Bhutan. Currently, I am studying at the Florida Institute of Technology in Melbourne, Florida.

To be frank, I didn't know that programs such as the Fulbright Program were offered by the U.S. Government, and I had never heard the word 'Fulbright' while I was in school. It was only after I took and received my Bhutan Higher Secondary Certificate Examinations (BHSCE) results and had my interview that I came to know about this program. Of course, our Bhutan Scholarship Division and Royal Civil Service Commission (RCSC) had explained several times what the program is, but I still couldn't entirely figure it out.

Pema Wangdi, 2007-2008, Bhutan
Pema Wangdi, 2007-2008, Bhutan

Since I have never ever traveled abroad before in my life, I was very worried about traveling and whom to interact with in such a developed part of the world! Several times I thought of cancelling my grant because of my fear of being in foreign countries. But to my surprise, everything was arranged to the fullest, and the only thing I had to do was to read the directions and follow accordingly.

The first thing I received was a welcome package. It had every valuable document inside and was of great importance. While reading the information, I noticed the Fulbright Terms and Conditions, the individual responsibilities, availability of enrichment seminar programs. We are given lots of opportunities to engage with fellow Fulbrighters from all different countries.

I have been here for a short time and my experiences are limited, but I would say that we are able to learn a lot and can return back to our countries full of new experiences, ideas, knowledge and views.


Saturday, October 9, 2010

No Gain, No Pain!

Dhur Da Chham: Photographed from the cover of
Tshering Tashi's Book "
"Bold Bhutan Beckons"
It is a "No Gain, No Pain", not the famous saying "No pain, No gain"!

The article "Reluctant mask dancers" by reporter Gyempo Namgayl of Bhutan Observer brought to light perhaps the most itching issue about the difficulties being faced in the village community to conduct their annual or bi-annual Tshechu(s) - the festivals. It is no new thing, in fact the local leaders have been facing similar difficulties for years. Now children go to modern school, and nobody wants to stay back at village and become "Gomchen", hence no dancer.

As a village kid, I would be eagerly welcoming the Tshechu season, and I would be totally in a festive mood. I can vividly remember how I enjoyed those unique dances showcased by our monks and elderly people which now remained as a story of past. About five years ago, the last time I saw Tshebar Tshechu, it was not as exciting as it used to be like many years back because most of the dances are gone with the dying dancers. Nobody took keen interest to learn, and follow their suits. Now all one can see are few 'distorted' and copied versions performed by elderly folks! Quite a mercy. Equally disturbing is that there are no enough people to fulfill the requirement for each dance. Usually they are performed with less dancers than are actually required. See the problem? Of course, the situation can be attributed to seeing better future with modern education than being a dancer. Honestly speaking who would want to remain as a dancer for whole life? Will they be able to make a life as dancer? No, I don't think so. They are not RAPA employees, they don't get paid, and they don't get to perform in the five-star hotels and get paid for it. In short, they don't have needed facilities to remain as dancers. Who is responsible for that? The Government? Well, I could certainly see light on the hands of the Government which may facilitate and set aside some budget for each gewog, and ultimately could be used to pay those dancers.

I can already know what our government would say if we ever asked them for that favor, though. They would say that it is our community festival, and if we are not responsible for it, why would government be? But in this economic period of time, without income, it will be hard even to keep the flow between hand to mouth continuous. Almost everything in the market is becoming expensive day by day, and those lower sections are the worst hit. So it is only understandable why nobody wants to work for no benefit in return. Yet there are few who under the compulsion and 'threat' from the people in power are still putting their valuable efforts to make the Tshechus running. I salute them! I like our Government, which is founded with the development philosophy of Gross National Happiness, for stressing equally more on culture preservation. But if they are only funding and helping those tsechus conducted in the proximity of capital and only tourist-accessible destinations, there is seriously something lacking in our goal of culture preservation. That doesn't mean that our government is not doing anything, however. In fact, for the last few years, I have been reading the news and hearing from people that our monasteries are being renovated. I applaud them. But we still need those renovated monasteries to hold Tshechus, and for that matter need willing dancers to dance.

Without that, those smiles seen on our people's faces would eventually come to an end in the GNH land. Our community is known for being deeply rooted to their ancestry bonds, and they remain helpful to each other in good times as well as in bad times. That is one of the reasons behind those smiles on our faces. However, if village leaders, or any other leaders in that capacity, compel those 'reasonably-unwilling' dancers to dance, and worse enough slap them with monetary fines or punishment or are "boycotted by the local religious community indefinitely", what would happen in the long run? The harmony that has been prevailing in the community will be lost, and there will be many divided sections of sad people.

So it is high time, the government took some extra initiatives to address such issues, and together we can not only preserve our thriving cultures, but also bring back those which now remained lost. Nevertheless, for the name of preserving culture, I wouldn't want the masks danced to the tune of rock bands as reported to have performed in the very recent Miss Bhutan 2010 finale! Its a complete dilution of culture, and it wouldn't be desirable.

No More You in Me!

This poem was written when I was studying at Nangkor Higher Secondary School in 11 Science. It obviously shows how I was stuck by the thunderous love with the relationship ending in a lightening speed! To maintain the originality, I did no editing and proof-reading of any sort. So please bear with the grammatical errors, and reading it with light heart would help for I retain no hard feelings on her.

Oh! My Heart!
Never stoop for she is no worth than own life.
Here the death man lies...
What cares the beauties on them?
Reddened on his checks and smiling face white-washed
Yet, no special path for him to leave this world!
Than to follow the equal route does the poor fellows.

You the unfaithful,
And impious wench!
As if immortal and eternal you are.
Boundless are your talks propelled by
The influence of thy boneless tongue.
Talks! How to define it?
It makes man laugh, and cry too.
Thine truth-less talks spoken in dreamily
Were merciless insult to me.
But now you are against my wish.
Dream not I may seek your advice
And I am not in thirst of you.

My cry on you was infinite
The glance over you was systematic without rest.
The dream on you wasn't true instead a false illusion.
I lack the words capable of melting your heart
Nor my heart be made visible to you.
Eventually, my love in vain!

Now never guess today's wind was blown yesterday,
It is merely false with no proof.
So is my bent on you.
I can't die of you nor sacrifice a meal
You hated me but I don't care you.
You be such could grasp the stars
Fulfilled with category of beauties, be a Queen
I gave up you.
Never tends to mingle your laugh with my tears,
I am hornless and tail too.
Let you hate, pretend blind to me
But I will be indeed Pema!!

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