The real killer!

I have been dealing with it for years now. I have come to realize that I am knowingly making my life harder myself by not complying with what I honestly know should be done. The so called procastination is such a killer that leaves you totally paralized if appropriate measures are not taken on time.
The fact that I am always struggling at the end of the semester or at the end of the due dates is becuase I don't really get serious about the things that I am supposed to be doing. Having to deal with all those hurdles, quite often, I would with genuine concern promise to myself that I won't repeat the same old shit and that I would start on time, thereby saving my from another eleventh hour haste.
But here again, I am pushing behind all those works which If I'd taken due interest, and started on time, I would not be here today scribbling nonsense. A friend of mine, a Japanese, says that he does whatever is asigned right away and spend rest of the time judiciously. How smart!! I've committed several times in front of him to follow his strategies, but until now I have been failing. Seriously failing. I should be damned!
The helpless part is that I know nothing is actually tough when its taken seriously and put effort as its supposed to be put. I have noticed that repeatedly, yet why am I not able to follow what is best for me? It makes me sick time and again. I have proved to myself that if I try and work on time, I end up getting better grades. Still nothing seems to motivate or in fact put sense in me. So I thought I should spell everything out here in front of you viewers and readers with a promise to not procastinate my work anymore. I am worried that it will be tough, but certainly not impossible. The idea behind bringing it here is that having promised in front of you guys, I have an obligation to keep up my promise and not try ruining it again.
Please, pray for my success. Fingers crossed!

Summer Class Update: A decision made

As much as I cared about getting into the Elementary Spanish class, I was equally worried about the heavier workload that would have come with it. After all I was talking about taking three classes in summer semester which has merely eight weeks. I knew trying out such thing was a complete suicidal, but again I didn't want to make my life harder for the remaining semesters.
Out of frustration as well as in quest of finding wise solution, I have been gathering opinions from my friends who gave many varied thoughts and options. I took note of all. However, I knew no matter whatever they say, the ultimate decision lies on my hand. Accordingly I decided to not register for Spanish purely based on the fact that I would not be able to master the materials within 8 weeks time. Because it is a totally new course to me, and everything I'll have to start from scratch on top of already enough challenging courses that I have registered for. I was concerned, and mindful of that. Moreover, I have missed the first class on Monday, yet I was hopeful of getting my closed class form signed by Tuesday, thereby enabling me to join the class on Wednesday. But, unfortunately Dr. Taylor couldn't attend to my request form which meant another day or so of waiting. That will be a disaster for I will have missed two classes even if he approves by then. So considering all those odds, I went on to meet the department secretary and withdrew my form. The deal finally came on an end. Its good that I don't need to struggle with three courses, but the very first civilization class was torturing enough despite the fact that we got the most hottest professor. She surely is hot! LOL. Modern Physics wasn't any better, though.

Summer Class Dilemma

I wish our university had a provision to notify those students who had registered for the course which later gets cancelled due to whatever reason it may be. By doing so would help us choose other courses, meet student advisors, and register before its too late.
Thats what happened: After getting approval from my academic advisor, who normally is busy, with much hurdle, I had registered for three courses: Business Statistics, Civilization II, and Modern Physics all for this summer 2010. Three courses in summer? Yeah, thats right, I was going to try how it works. However, lately when I checked the detailed schedule for this summer and printed them out, I was surprised to see only two courses. I rechecked it to make sure if I had printed in fully. Yes I had. Suspicious of something usual about the whole situation, I made a final attempt to check my registration status for the summer through PAWS (sorry I don't know what does it stand for, but its a online service). There I found it marked: "Course Cancelled on May 6." against the Business Statistics course.
I am partly to be blamed too because I was being a little irresponsible by not checking it earlier, but how am I supposed to know that they will cancel it once it got published in the schedule? It just doesn't make sense to me. I am pretty pissed off right now, yet again it gives me some chance to decide wisely as to if I would be able to handle three big courses within 8 weeks. Well, this is not an issue with me right now. The real issue is why don't they notify us automatically to those registered students in advance so that we can make a better choice of the class and register for another class appropriately; without having to hustle and bustle at the last minutes for last minute hustle doesn't guarantee to get into the class that we opt for as it gets closed way before unless the course is a very boring one.
Thats what exactly happened to me. The only option that I could think of was taking Elementary Spanish 1 as a free elective. Although I am so thankful to my advisor for replying me promptly with an approval for the course, I didn't have a luck to get to the class. It was already closed. As a matter of fact, the class has already four students over the limit. So I've a pretty low chance of getting the closed class form approval from Dr. Taylor, the head of the Humanities Department.
Lets see what happens next, now its entirely up to Dr. Taylor. I will end up taking Spanish if he approves by tomorrow, else I will be having just two classes. The work load sounds better, but it means a heavier load for the remaining semesters.

Shocking Week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Although I'm having a break, this week has never favored me in any slightest way. In fact, it failed me completely and brought me tremendous shocks!!!

First, it was an accident in which my roommate and friends got seriously injured; thereby having to undergo critical medication... still now. I even don't know how long they will have to continue. It was a shocking news and bad fortune obviously.

But the second one that I heard just moments ago from my brother is even more shocking-its heartbreaking!!!! How can they do it? Why would anyone take their own life? Why, seriously why? I'm totally heartbroken to hear that my uncle who was a school teacher at our community school hung himself to death! What more worse can it become? How more shocking can it be? I am truly truly hopeless and helpless to hear he did that leaving behind his loved ones; more importantly he had three lovely kids who are growing up day by day and wanting the parents' guidance more and more. Why did he not wait to see them grow to become somebody someday? Why did he not realize that nobody can give the true love that the real parents give?...The longer I sit alone in my room, the more dumbfounded I become by those countless questions.

But no matter how hard I try to figure out, those questions are just left as questions without any concrete answers. I wish I had someone nearby me explaining and convincing me enough that suicide is the only ultimate solution for whatever problem that one might be entangling to. Will there be anyone other than the one who are committed to suicide that can give the most convincing answer?

Anyway, there is nothing that could be done at this point of time to alter what has already happened. I am writing this blog just to show how (particularly because I am far away from home where I can't have the last glimpse of my uncle) I loved him as a teacher, father, uncle, and as a respectable member of our interlinked family. We will miss your quite yet magnificent presence, your humblest nature, and above all everything that you had been to us-family and relatives around.

I pray that your soul rest peacefully in the heavenly abbot!!!

A Guitar Lesson

I have very recently bought a brand new computer-mac book pro. Its a 13-inch and it costed me $1200 including tax after availing the student discount. Although I had that plan of buying new computer for quite sometime, I didn't want to buy any time soon. But situation necessitated me to go ahead and buy it no matter what. Thats because in Spring semester I was taking a programming course (C++) for which I needed the visual studio 2008 to start with. My old Toshiba computer which I bought in 2007 for mere $400 has grown quite old and wasn't supporting the software that I wanted to run.

Basically for first few weeks of the semester, I had to go to the college library to do the assignments which was very inconvenient since I am living off campus. Riding bike alone at night is not a very good idea specially here. I am at least glad I got some reasons to blame about. LOL. I was doing terrible in that class and I was the dumbest guy in the class. I felt really ashamed although there was none who knew me in a personal level. Actually there was one whom I knew since the freshman year, but that guy dropped the class even before taking the midterm.

So considering all those aforementioned problems, I had to consult my roommate who is almost 10 years older than me for an advice. I am explicitly revealing our age difference just to let you guys know the credibility of my advisor. I am not intending any offense. Indeed, his word was so powerful and matured which enabled me to take a firm decision before it was too late. Talking about the late thing, I mean resulting with an F if not dropped on time (if it is necessary)!

"Pe Ay (Bro. Ay), I am really having a tough time with C++. I think I am gonna end up failing with this class. Should I drop the class or buy the computer which supports visual studio 2008?" I fired to my very roommate expectantly for an answer.

"Pema, you know even if you drop the class, you are already losing around $3000 (Tuition that my scholarship paid for it), that means it as same as you had bought a computer. Now you see instead if you go ahead and buy the computer it will cost you $1200 and you will still have that course."

Wow, that made a lot of sense. It really did, I was so totally out of mind! In fact, I was pretty much decided to drop the class. But his word made me reconsider my decision and ended up buying the computer. Thats how I got my new computer. Now it runs two operating systems: its parent/default Mac OS and Windows 7. Latter being required for VS 2008- the sole purpose of buying the computer.

Macbook pro has gotten lots of great features which I am still discovering everyday. Yet one thing that caught my attention is the "garage band". It is mainly a guitar tutorial and has got many useful features to make one guitarist if one is so consistent about it. So my whole write ups above are basically to share that I have begun to take that lesson and so far I have got as far as lesson number 4. I am committed to work for the remaining lessons during this weeklong break before I get bogged down by summer classes. By the way, I have already registered for three courses for summer alone. I am aware of challenges that are ahead of me this summer!

Pray for me, and yeah wish me for my guitar endeavor. I hope to play and sing a song with you guys!
Picture credit to google.

Cheers!

Away on a break.

I know I have made a big commitment to keep this blog updated. I am mindful of that, but after four stressful months of studying, I had planned for a trip with my friends. We went to Tampa, a 3-hour drive from Melbourne, mainly for visiting Busch Garden which costs $75 just for entry!

We stayed there for a night in the hotel located next the St. Peterburgs International Airport. You know what I mean, just next to the airport, meaning thunderous noises from incoming and departing aircrafts. So it was no wonder why the hotel was quite cheap, comparatively. I am yet to confirm, but I do remember my roommate declaring that it was $40 per night. Well anyway, we had a good time there and despite all those odd locations, I had had a undisturbed sleep; thanks to the tiring walk along the clear water beach and an hour long swimming. Let me be honest here though, I don't know how to swim, but that didn't deter me getting into the salty water (ocean) flogged by spectacular bikini ladies....lol. My friends were kind enough to give me some swimming lesson, for which I tried but failed.

That pretty much summed up the first day of the trip. Oh okay, actually we had a magnificent dinner at a steak house. By the way, I loved the server very much after all she was probably the most beautiful server I have ever seen in the steak house. That left me with no option than to tip her almost $5. I saw one of my friends who sat just next to me also tipping her $5 for that very reason! Finally, we summed our day with a few bottles of bear before we hit the beds.

Next day, it was Sunday, May 9, and we were bounded for Busch Garden, the main purpose of our trip. Previous night, our trip coordinator, my roommate P'Ay instructed us to wake up around 7:30 AM, get a breakfast at the downstair of the hotel. By the way, it was free for clients which comprised of bacon, eggs, coffee, light drinks, donuts, and breads. We did it accordingly, and around 8:30 AM, we checked out and headed for Busch Garden. Rest of the day, we were mostly walking around the Garden, taking pictures of variety of animals. Perhaps it was not a brilliant idea to start off with a roller coaster ride which made my day miserable as I battled with headache for rest of the day. I couldn't ride any more roller coasters, not even the least craziest one; a sort of boat ride.

At the end of the day, I learnt from my friends who had ridden all roller coasters (around 4 or 5) that the one we rode was the most craziest one. So now I know I should not start with a roller coaster ride.

Around 6:30 pm we exited the Busch Garden, and headed for Orlando where we would be having dinner at Chinese restaurant. After having a heavy dinner of sea foods, rice, beef noodles, and crispy pork and duck, we zoomed off for our final destination-apartment. Not to mention about gotten lost several times along the highway, I must declare it as a wonderful trip.